Ahhhh, what a nice feeling it is to have gone 4 days without bingeing! It doesn't seem like a lot of time, but to me those four days are amazing because in that time I feel like I've got control again over my eating. Happy dance!
In other news...yesterday I worked from 6:15-6:30 (12-ish hours, not 15 minutes) and today looks to be a similar day. So what did I do yesterday? WELL, lemme tell you!
- I...ate healthy!
-I...brought my laptop and looked at Pinterest and the WW message boards all day
-I...worked out on the treadmill at work! Unfortunately it's broken and stuck at a 10% incline which is freakin high people! I started out going at a 3.5 mph and then I ended up at 3.0 mph. I kept wanting to lower it and then remembered that I couldn't. But I did watch Desperate Housewives on Hulu on my laptop while doing it =) I never realized I could put my laptop on a treadmill before until my friend did it! Savior!
Anyway, I'm getting all geared up for some friends to come to town this weekend because my boyfriend and I are taking them skiing this whole weekend and two days next weekend! Snowboarding is a lot of work and it's a great way to burn some calories, Sunday I burned almost 900 calories and it's awesomely fun.
The hard part will be getting some running in at the same time, even though my legs will be dead from all the snowboarding. But it's got to be done! I have to take a break off of my training when we go to Disney on the 17th-23rd. There will be lots of walking, but I can guarantee there will be zero training.
Today on my list is a 3 mile run which I will be completing at the gym after work! Here's hoping I don't have a huge migraine by then =)
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
Monday, December 5, 2011
The binge monster
Lately I've gotten into this habit of eating my lunch around 11-11:30, and they're good sized lunches too. Afterwards I just want to keep eating and eating and eating. So I eat my snacks. And then I eat the points that were for dinner on more snacks. And then I don't have any left to eat for dinner which doesn't matter because I'm usually still full by then anyway. But it's becoming a problem- I don't want to eat only two meals a day. A normal and filling breakfast and a gigantic lunch.
For example, today's menu
Breakfast- 8:10 am
1/2 c. kashi go lean crunch cereal
1/2 c. chobani vanilla fat free greek yogurt
1 banana sliced on top
snack: clementine 10:30
Lunch-11:30
1 c. high fiber spaghetti with sauce
1 slice meatloaf
2/3 c. satueed brussel sprouts
afterwards between then and now (3:15)
handful of graham cracker chocolate bunnies, a graham cracker, special k fruit crisps, sugar free pudding with cool whip on top, string cheese, an apple, and half a banana.
Now for dinner I'll be having soup. Yup. Soup.
I am also trying not to talk myself out of my 3 mile run tonight, as I am starting to get nervous about the Disney Princess half in February. If I don't train, I won't do well. If I eat too much, then I don't train. Blah.
I will do this! I'm going to force myself to until I enjoy it. That's healthy right?
For example, today's menu
Breakfast- 8:10 am
1/2 c. kashi go lean crunch cereal
1/2 c. chobani vanilla fat free greek yogurt
1 banana sliced on top
snack: clementine 10:30
Lunch-11:30
1 c. high fiber spaghetti with sauce
1 slice meatloaf
2/3 c. satueed brussel sprouts
afterwards between then and now (3:15)
handful of graham cracker chocolate bunnies, a graham cracker, special k fruit crisps, sugar free pudding with cool whip on top, string cheese, an apple, and half a banana.
Now for dinner I'll be having soup. Yup. Soup.
I am also trying not to talk myself out of my 3 mile run tonight, as I am starting to get nervous about the Disney Princess half in February. If I don't train, I won't do well. If I eat too much, then I don't train. Blah.
I will do this! I'm going to force myself to until I enjoy it. That's healthy right?
Saturday, December 3, 2011
12 week challenge!!
Today I am beginning a 12 week challenge with myself!! Technically this challenge will end on a day that I'm at Disney so I'll have to post my results the day that I leave...so really it's an 11 week and 6 day challenge. But that's OK!!!
I give myself 12 weeks (roughly 3 months) to lose the last of my weight =)
Here are my starting statistics:
Weight: 134.8 -- I've technically only gained less than 5 lbs but it feels so SO much more! 5 lbs really makes a difference
Goal Weight: 120!
--I am going to get there, this isn't an option this time. I have so many events coming up this next year that I want to feel confident and look good for-- my roommates wedding (bridesmaid!), my boyfriend's graduation from USAFA (so many dinners and events leading up to it) and hopefully my own wedding eventually-- he still has to propose
These are my measurements!
Calf- 13.5"
Inch above knee- 15"
Thigh- 22"
Hips- 38"
Stomach- 35"
Waist- 27.5"
Chest- 34.25"
Arms- 11.5"
Starting photos! Sorry for the poor picture quality, my apartment doesn't have overhead lighting and these are obvs taken with my iphone. And yes, I'm dressed in my workout gear because I do indeed intend to go workout in about an hour.
Outside? No. Outside is a frozen tundra death trap that I just don't feel like facing. I'll be tough some other day, today I just want to get a run in and not get frost bite.
The view from my window. The picture doesn't even do it justice, it's snowing and the winds are about 25 mph and it's 19* F but it feels like 4* F.
But this month (month 1) I will be strictly focusing on cardio, to get my weight loss jump started and so that I won't get overwhelmed by my workouts. Next month I'm going to add in my own weight training on the machines around the gym, twice a week. Then month 3 I will start going to the weight lifting classes that are at my gym (they are crazy intense!!)
So that's my plan, off to digest my breakfast and then go for a run on the treadmill.
I give myself 12 weeks (roughly 3 months) to lose the last of my weight =)
Here are my starting statistics:
Weight: 134.8 -- I've technically only gained less than 5 lbs but it feels so SO much more! 5 lbs really makes a difference
Goal Weight: 120!
--I am going to get there, this isn't an option this time. I have so many events coming up this next year that I want to feel confident and look good for-- my roommates wedding (bridesmaid!), my boyfriend's graduation from USAFA (so many dinners and events leading up to it) and hopefully my own wedding eventually-- he still has to propose
These are my measurements!
Calf- 13.5"
Inch above knee- 15"
Thigh- 22"
Hips- 38"
Stomach- 35"
Waist- 27.5"
Chest- 34.25"
Arms- 11.5"
Starting photos! Sorry for the poor picture quality, my apartment doesn't have overhead lighting and these are obvs taken with my iphone. And yes, I'm dressed in my workout gear because I do indeed intend to go workout in about an hour.
Outside? No. Outside is a frozen tundra death trap that I just don't feel like facing. I'll be tough some other day, today I just want to get a run in and not get frost bite.
The view from my window. The picture doesn't even do it justice, it's snowing and the winds are about 25 mph and it's 19* F but it feels like 4* F.
But this month (month 1) I will be strictly focusing on cardio, to get my weight loss jump started and so that I won't get overwhelmed by my workouts. Next month I'm going to add in my own weight training on the machines around the gym, twice a week. Then month 3 I will start going to the weight lifting classes that are at my gym (they are crazy intense!!)
So that's my plan, off to digest my breakfast and then go for a run on the treadmill.
Friday, December 2, 2011
Where to start?
I posted a while back about having binge eating disorder and how I'm starting to see a therapist about it. I haven't seen her since my first session and I have been really struggling with the bingeing. It was so so so easy a couple of months ago to just 'flip the switch' and do so well for about 5 weeks and then something happened (I'm not sure what) and everything went downhill and I haven't been able to get back to that point since.
Which brings me to now. What am I doing? Where am I at? What's my plan of attack?
Right this second I am watching How I Met Your Mother on Netflix--SCORE
I weighed in this morning at 134.6 and will probably weigh more tomorrow because I had a huge binge today, fruit twists, fruit snacks, graham cracker bunnies, pizza, string cheese etc etc and my belly looks roughly 5 months pregnant. I am at -95 points for Weight Watchers for the week<-- that's unfortunate
BUT BUT BUT!!
Tomorrow my WW week restarts afresh and I have a scheduled run with my sister as I am going to start getting serious about this training. The half marathon is 12 weeks from Sunday *mini freakout!!*
So tomorrow I am going on my run in 16 degree weather while it's snowy and windy and I'll be so proud of myself when I'm done! Exercise and eating well goes hand in hand for me. And I am going to cook a meal that I'll be able to eat all next week because I'll be working 9-12 hours days and then going to the gym!
Plan plan plan, this will be the key to my success.
Failure just isn't even an option this time, I need to get through this. I will update about my weigh in, my measurements, and my run tomorrow!!
Which brings me to now. What am I doing? Where am I at? What's my plan of attack?
Right this second I am watching How I Met Your Mother on Netflix--SCORE
I weighed in this morning at 134.6 and will probably weigh more tomorrow because I had a huge binge today, fruit twists, fruit snacks, graham cracker bunnies, pizza, string cheese etc etc and my belly looks roughly 5 months pregnant. I am at -95 points for Weight Watchers for the week<-- that's unfortunate
BUT BUT BUT!!
Tomorrow my WW week restarts afresh and I have a scheduled run with my sister as I am going to start getting serious about this training. The half marathon is 12 weeks from Sunday *mini freakout!!*
So tomorrow I am going on my run in 16 degree weather while it's snowy and windy and I'll be so proud of myself when I'm done! Exercise and eating well goes hand in hand for me. And I am going to cook a meal that I'll be able to eat all next week because I'll be working 9-12 hours days and then going to the gym!
Plan plan plan, this will be the key to my success.
Failure just isn't even an option this time, I need to get through this. I will update about my weigh in, my measurements, and my run tomorrow!!
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