Day 2

Weight: 137.0

That's good, at least some of how much I weigh is bloat (yay). Today I'm super struggling with not overeating I'm not sure why. I feel like I've conditioned my body to want to eat when I'm bored or when I have too much on my mind. Like, it's my weigh to de-stress. Unfortunately, losing weight is stressful and which makes me want to eat which causes me to gain weight and need to diet and exercise. Unfortunate.

My current way to end my day is to go home and watch tv with my roomie or alone in my bedroom. I've gotten through 5 seasons of Greek on Netflix shockingly fast because of this..hmmm. I think I need to look at exercise after or before work as my way to deal with stress because eating is obviously not working.

So, as of right now I've stayed within my calories for today, but I'm pretty full so dinner will be light soup after I go running. Yesterday I didn't get to my running because every time I moved I wanted to puke I was so nauseous. I started a new pack of birth control on Sunday and I was having my adjustment period but so far so good for today!

Day 1 of 66

starting weight: 138.2
goal weight: 125.0

so that's a bummer but I suppose there needs to be a starting point right? I packed a lunch of a whole wheat tortilla to make a cheese quesadilla with a side of fruit plus some yogurt and my diet Dr pepper. Breakfast this morning was 1/3 cup of fat free Greek yogurt with sliced bananas and strawberries.

should be a good day :-)

Wise Wise Words

66 Days

Things have been bad guys, like super bad. I've been telling myself for the past 2 months that I need to commit and lose weight but I've only been half-assing it. The result? The result is feeling bloated, unsexy, full all the time, embarrassment, tight fitting clothes etc etc. Who doesn't know how this feels? Anyway. Same old story, yada yada yada. I'm making a promise to myself that I AM going to see this through. I have so many upcoming changes in my life that I really want to feel good and confident about myself for. My half marathon is in exactly one week in Disney World (I haven't ran or exercised in 3 weeks) and I need to run at least a bit this week so I don't just keel over and die and take out a few runners with me.

Today I weighed in at 136.8- although, to be fair, today is the first day of 'that time' so I'm totally bloated and I have had a crap load of salt in the past couple of days. But, still, no excuses. That weight is NOT ok and I'm not going to see it again.

Going back to eating 1200 calories a day, tracking in Disney is going to be HARD but I've eaten healthy there before and I can do it again. Plus, Lent starts on Wednesday (Methodists do it too!) and I'm giving up chocolate so no Mickey shaped ice cream bars for this gal!

Also! Though my race is in a week, I need to run a few miles a couple of times this week just to remind my body what it needs to do soon. My next half marathon is in Nashville on April 28- 66 days from tomorrow. For right now I'm going to focus on running 3-4 days a week, cross training 2-3 times a week and getting in weight lifting at least once! After this race I want to concentrate more on heavy lifting but that'll have to wait because there are only so many days and hours in my week.

66 days you guys! My new goal weight is 125.0 (more realistic for me) so I have 11.8 lbs to go. Tonight I'll be making my breakfast, lunch, and snacks to take with me tomorrow =)